Playlist: I Know Who You Are

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I Know Who You Are by Planetshakers. From the first time I heard and watched this song in Youtube to the recent Planetshakers Awakening Conference 2017 even up to our Batangas trip yesterday, this song really made an impact in my heart and has been part of my playlist this season.

It is indeed important to start the year (yes, even my comeback in blogging) and our day to day lives by knowing who God is. Narealized ko na sa lahat ng nangyari last year, na hindi ko masabing maganda, nagsimula yun dahil nakalimutan ko kung sino si God sa buhay ko.

Let me quote some parts of this song and some of my last year’s story, with a hope and prayer that it will somehow encourage you.

In the mountain air
In the valley low
You are always there
You are always close

You have walked the earth
And you understand
You know every hurt
And You hold my hand

HE IS PERSONAL. My previous season was really challenging for me but knowing and experiencing in the process that God, is a personal God, that He understands us and He’s not just concern in our highs and happy moments, but even mindful of our hurts and pains, helped me move forward and rise up. Hindi Siya transactional katulad natin. Sobrang iba yung alam mo lang na personal Sya sa naeexperience mo na personal talaga Siya.

I’m grateful because God taught me, and is continuously teaching me to be transparent in my relationship with Him. Na hindi bago sa kanya yung mga sinasabi ko. Na kahit bago pa ko magsalita, alam naman Nya yung nararamdaman ko. Na kahit ikwento ko ibang tao yung mga nararanasan at nararamdaman ko, Siya lang talaga pinakamakakaintindi sa’ken and He will minister in a way na Siya lang ang makakagawa. (Hebrews 4:15)

This year, we will experience again different discouragement, disappointments, hurts, pains or brokenness, pero walang tataob sa truth na sa gitna ng salitang sakit ay letrang K.

Kristo. Katotohanan na Kasama naman natin palagi si Kristo.

Anything that brings us to our knees is a blessing because life is designed to help us come to a one-on-one encounter with the living God.

That’s my greatest lesson last year, that God knows and that He is mindful of every detail of my life – ni isang segundo, walang nakalagpas sa kanya. Ibang security yung binibigay nun.

I may not have much left
But you provide
With every waking breath
I’ll lift you high
You hear my every prayer
You are by my side
God I know you
God I trust you

HE SATISFIES. HE COMPLETES. Many things will distract us and will look like pleasing and life-giving but at the end, will still leave us empty. I remember one moment in my life last year na walang wala talaga ko – relationally, financially, emotionally. May araw na it seems like everything is going well in your life tapos biglang babagsak na lang.

It is when we really know God that we will also learn to trust Him. It is hard to trust a person you don’t know (most especially if you are a Relator like me). I believe that’s what this part of the song means. That if we know God as the One who provides and meets our needs, we will trust Him. We will put our hope in Him. Even if the things in front of us or around us say that there is no hope or it is impossible.

And even if we still don’t have the things that we are asking and believing God for, we will still praise Him. We will still lift up His Name – knowing that the life we live, the air we breathe and our relationship with Him are what we can already consider as greatest blessings.

Most of the time, what we can consider as the greatest moment of our year ay hindi yung mga moment na nagsasalita ka sa harapan, nagseserve ka sa likuran, sumisigaw ka na magpapagamit ka sa Kanya para baguhin yung mundo, yung maraming taong tumitingala sayo ngunit yung moment na wala ka talagang maioffer kundi yung puso mo tapos Siya nakatingin sayo, hawak kamay mo at sasabihin Niya na, “May pag-asa pa anak, kasi kaharap mo ang pag-asa mo. Ako ang pag-asa mo.”

Lord, Maker, Savior
I know that through it all
You are greater
Your love for me
Will never fade away
Those who hope in you
Will never be ashamed
‘Cause I know who You are

Wag mong sayangin yung hurts at pains mo last year kasi may nag-aalaga na Diyos sa’yo. At gusto ka Niyang gamitin sa buhay ng ibang tao para sabihin sa kanila kung paano pinakilala ni Lord yung sarili Nya sayo at ipakita sa kanila na yung bundok na meron sila ngayon, posible yung akyatin o galawin.

15 But when God, who set me apart from my mother’s womb and called me by his grace, was pleased 16 to reveal his Son in me so that I might preach him among the Gentiles…

Galatians 1:15-16, NIV

I keep asking that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the glorious Father, may give you the Spirit of wisdom and revelation, so that you may know him better.

Ephesians 1:17, NIV

Lord, I pray that aside from knowing You, we will experience You also.

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Best Nine of 2015.

Sobrang trending ngayon ng Best Nine in Instagram – an Instagram post which combines your most liked posts in 2015. It was cool, nakakatuwa magthrowback but the thing is, hindi ikaw ang pumili ng best 9 mo kung hindi yung mga taong nakakita ng mga posts mo.

So before this year ends, if I am going to make my own best nine for the year 2015, here it is:PicMonkey Collage1.jpg

  1. My 2 year-old pamangkin: “Isay” 
    • Expectation: Just a normal time spent with her
    • Reality: Those times na biglaang magbibigay saken si Lord ng revelations through her na nagamit ko everytime I will exhort in front of people. Truths about Him, being my Father and the true meaning of having a relationship with Him. Through Isay, ang dami kong moments na … “Oo nga no, ganito ka pala saken God.”  (Buti na lang bata ka pa Isay at di mo napapansin ang tulala moments ko)
  2. College Graduation
    • Expectation: Makapagtapos ng on time, walang bagsak at hindi uulit ng subject
    • Reality: God gave me more than what I expected. This year ko talaga narealized na ang liit ng pangarap ko sa sarili ko kumpara sa plano na meron si God sa buhay ko. (Narebuke ako, pre)
  3. Young Pro/Working Season
    • Expectation: Makapagtrabaho sa ibang company except in the ministry, magwork kahit di katulad ng natapos ko basta computer related.
    • Reality: God opened the door for me to work in the ministry or church where I belong plus… sa course talaga na natapos ko. (Look at that! Sobrang opposite ng gusto ko!)
  4. Ushering Ministry
    • Expectation: To stay in the team for more than a year, leading them and raising up new leaders from them
    • Reality: After 8 months, God brought me to another place. From Worship Service Coordinator and now to Ushering Ministry Coordinator. (God, yung totoo?)
  5. Transition/Exhortation
    • Expectation: Dahil tahimik at mahiyain ako, ganito na ko lalaki at mamatay – yan sabe ko nung wala pa kong Jesus sa buhay ko.
    • Reality: This year, God gave me the opportunity to exhort and speak in front of not just 1 person but 900+ young people through transition. (yung mga ways at plans mo rin no, Lord, minsan nakakaano e….)
  6. Trainings and Equippings
    • Foundation for Victory (now Purple Book Class), Speakers Training, Leadership 412, Mentoring, Impartations, etc… Simple seminars and trainings that really molded me and helped me in my walk with Him.
  7. Week One Team
    • Faith Goal: Unity and Deeper relationship in the team – like a family. And seeing now, sila na makakapagsabe.
  8. Tagaytay
    • Faith Goal: 2 out of towns this year and it happened in this place!
  9. Boys2Men
    • Faith Goal: Brothers with Depth and Shared Lives and they became the answer.

 

As I look back to these 2015 moments, if I will describe this year through bible verse(s), I will say its…

8 For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways, declares the LORD.
9 For as the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts.  

-Isaiah 55:8-9 (ESV)

Are you thankful na si God, most of the time, hindi Niya inaanswer lahat yung prayers natin? Because may iba Syang plano, may mas maganda Syang plano, plano na mas matindi pa sa prayers mo.

Looking back, what if sinagot ni God yung prayers ko nung college ako pati nung naghahanap ako ng trabaho, I can’t even imagine myself na nagsettle pala ako sa less, e may nakaplano pala saken si God na best.

Hindi lang best. According to His will, plans, purposes and promises pa!

Friends, I know that this year, God exceeded your prayers and expectations. And I believe, as we face another year… God will still do it and even beyond what we can imagine.

10 “For as the rain and the snow come down from heaven
and do not return there but water the earth,
making it bring forth and sprout,
giving seed to the sower and bread to the eater,
11 so shall my word be that goes out from my mouth;
it shall not return to me empty,
but it shall accomplish that which I purpose,
and shall succeed in the thing for which I sent it.

-Isaiah 55:10-11 (ESV)

Ano pa ang mga bagay na pinaniniwalaan mo kay God? Patuloy kang maniwala. Maniwala na may maganda Syang plano sa buhay mo. At ginagawa Nya ang makakabuti para Sayo.

Sa gitna ng mga nangyari, sobrang grateful ng heart ko. Kasi kahit nung una, di ko sya naintindihan kung baket, pero habang patuloy ka lang nagtitiwala at naglalakad kung saan ka Nya dinala, konti konti Nyang sasabihin sayo ang rason. At kung hindi man, sapat nang malaman na kasama mo Siya.

12 “For you shall go out in joy
and be led forth in peace;
the mountains and the hills before you
shall break forth into singing,
and all the trees of the field shall clap their hands.
13 Instead of the thorn shall come up the cypress;
instead of the brier shall come up the myrtle;
and it shall make a name for the LORD,
an everlasting sign that shall not be cut off.”

-Isaiah 55:12-13 (ESV)

At kapag nasa gitna ka na ng promise at plano ni God, sobrang natural nung joy at ng peace. Buti na lang talaga, si God ang nasusunod sa ating buhay! Alam na alam Nya ang bawat detalye nito.

At kung nagtatanong ka kung bakit mas gusto Nyang magtake place yung promises Nya sa buhay mo, yung verse 13 na yung nagsabe nito…

“It shall MAKE A NAME FOR THE LORD”

Yes, magsisimula at magtatapos palagi sa Kanya. Yung moment lang na wala ka talagang maipagmamayabang kasi hindi mo naman plano ang lahat, pero plano Nya. Lahat ng mangyayari sa buhay mo, magbibigay yun ng papuri at pasasalamat sa Kanya. Hindi Niya binago yung promises Nya based sa prayers mo pero yung prayers mo, inadjust Nya kung gaano kalaki yung plano at promise Nya sa buhay mo.

Great are you, Lord! Thank you for Your faithfulness this year 2015! We are so much excited for the things that You will do for, in and through us next year!

And to you, I’m happy that you finished strong this year and #DareToBelieve that God has in store great things for you this coming 2016.

Happy New Year everyone!

 


To My Younger Siblings In Christ,

This is my first school year that I am not in the campus anymore. The first year without minding my time and my subjects for enrollment, my home works and thesis, what kind of food I am going to eat during lunch break, how long I am willing to wait for the next professor because I don’t know if he or she is late or absent and what kind of style I am going to do with my hair.

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            And because school or college life has been a memorable season of my life, I want to encourage you with some things that I’ve learned and realized during that season. Lessons that God taught me and I believe somehow will bring encouragement and brotherly advice to you. Because I care for you.

1. BE FAITHFUL IN SMALL THINGS.

“Whoever can be trusted with very little can also be trusted with much, and whoever is dishonest with very little will also be dishonest with much.”

(Luke 16:10)

Practical application. Ipantay mo ang tingin mo sa minor at major subjects. Wag mong magiging motto yung “Minor lang naman yan” dahil sa apat na taon ko sa kolehiyo, napatunayan ko talaga na yung maliliit na bagay, nakakapuwing. Hindi naman masamang pahalagahan ang major pero sana wag mong maliitin din ang minor. Dahil mamaya sa kakafocus mo sa malaki hindi mo na napansin yung maliit na bato na pwedeng pumatid at magpadapa sayo.

For me, hindi rin yung mga professors yung nagbibigay saten ng grades, si God din yun. Kung mababa man yung grades mo or feeling mo you deserve higher and better than that, yes, you can question your professors pero kung yun talaga, at the end of the day, remind yourself that He is the source of everything. God is more concerned with your character and your heart than the numbers in your report of grades. Even in small things in leadership, kahit simple, unseen and small task yan, be faithful with that because when God sees your faithfulness in small things, He will entrust you with bigger things. May promotion kay Lord!

2. HUMILITY IS A MUST 

“For those who exalt themselves will be humbled, and those who humble themselves will be exalted.”  

(Matthew 23:12)

Humility brings success. Sa mga moments na nahihirapan ka sa exams, thesis, admit your weakness to God. He will sustain you and He will supply everything that you need. At makatanggap ka man ng iba’t-ibang awards, continue to be humble knowing that it’s not from you, it’s from God and it’s not about you, it’s all about God.

Apart from Christ, we are nothing. (John 15:5) Bumalik ka palagi sa truth na yan para iwas entitlement. Nakakatuwa dahil nung una hindi ko naman gusto mag-aral sa University of Makati at pinangarap gumraduate ng may honor, kaya nung oras na dinala ako ni Lord sa mga puntong ‘yun, alam ko na hindi galing at dahil saken lahat ng ‘yun, plano ni God yun lahat sa buhay ko.

Same thing with you, alam ko na maganda yung promises at plans ni God sa buhay mo! Different but better than what you think and desire. But at the end of the day, remind yourself that you are not the source of it, you are just the bearer.

3. KEEP THINGS BALANCED

 “For the Spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love and self-discipline.”

(2 Timothy 1:7)

Naalala ko yung mga oras na pinapagawa kami ng essay, activities, group works at reporting. Hangga’t maipapasok namin yung relationship namin kay Lord, gagawin namin. I’m blessed to have classmates sharing the same faith and serving the same Lord in my college life. Mga tao na hangga’t kayang tapusin ang activities at assignments sa bahay, gagawin na. Kung lahat ng kaklase namin pumupunta sa likuran pag final exam, ako at kasama yung mga kaklase kong followers din ni Jesus, kami ang pumupuno ng front row. Pursue excellence. Again, excellence is the word, not perfectionism. Discipleship/Ministry and Excellence in the school should be like the wings of any kind of bird, pareho silang lumilipad.

“Studying is one way of glorifying God.

It is a proof that the servants and students of the Lord

never get left behind because Jesus is their wisdom.”

*Quote Not Mine

Same thing in your time with God, Wag mong papabayaan ang personal time mo with Jesus. Take care of your quiet times with the Lord. Kung may pinakaiingatan ka man, yan yung relationship mo kay Jesus. Oo, magiging busy ka. Pero tandaan mo na iba ang busy sa productive. I remember those moments na inspired at motivated akong pumasok sa school because I had a great time with God. I remember those tiring, faithless and discouraging moments but it all made sense to me and fears removed as I spent time with God, casting all my cares to Him knowing that He cares for me. He is your refuge, an ever present help in times of joy and trouble.

4. KNOW YOUR SEASON AND PURPOSE 

“There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens…”

(Ecclesiastes 3:1)

Enjoy the season where you are in. It’s okay to think about the future but please, enjoy the season where you are in. Wag mong madaliin. May mga ilang bagay na nanghinayang ako pagkagraduate ko dahil hindi ko inenjoy at sa iba ako tumingin. For me, pag minamadali mo kasi yung season mo, nadadagdagan din yung mga bagahe mo. Mapapagod ka. Tao ka lang din. Learn to embrace your season.

And there is really a blessing and direction if you know your season and purpose. Taking care of your relationship with God, with your family and with your friends. Honoring God through your studies and lifestyle. Making disciples and winning your generation for Jesus.

 

5. BE SECURED WITH YOUR IDENTITY    

“The Spirit you received does not make you slaves, so that you live in fear again; rather, the Spirit you received brought about your adoption to Sonship. And by him we cry, “Abba, Father.”

(Romans 8:15)

Yes, darating yung oras na magffail ka being a leader, a disciple maker and a student pero palagi ka lang bumalik sa una mong identity. Being a child of God. Ito yung identity mo na hinding hindi mawawala sa’yo. Ito yung identity na hindi nakabase sa ginagawa mo o sa narating mo, madapa ka man, magkamali ka man, mananatili kang anak Nya.

All my life, I believe God has been fathering me. That’s why if you’ve read my previous blogs about my college life journey, it’s entitled “Sonship”. It always reminds me that God already loved, loves and will continue to love me for who I am.

Darating yung oras na iiyakan mo yung pagod at disappointments na nararamdaman mo. Machachallenge ka financially sa sandamakmak na gastos at requirements. Maiinis sa mga professors at classmates mo. Maiinsecure sa iba.

Pero sa gitna ng lahat, wag mong kakalimutan na ANAK KA NI GOD.

“He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all–how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things?” (Romans 8:32)

 

If you have a personal relationship with God, you have everything you need and He is more than enough.

Galingan mo sa school ah! Ilaw ka sa campus na ‘yan. Many people will be blessed through you. You are born and you are there to make an impact. Do not become part of something that reduces you to less than who you are.

Alam ko na ang armas ng isang estudyanteng katulad mo ay hindi yung Report of Grades mo na puro uno, suot mong bagong damit at sapatos kapag wash day, yung perfect na exams at quizzes…

Ang tunay mong armas ay Pagmamahal. Ang Bible. Ang Prayer.

Si J E S U S.

“I am with you and will watch over you wherever you go, and I will bring you back to this land.

I will not leave you until I have done what I have promised you.”

(Genesis 28:15)

In Christ, 

Randy


Malamig ang Summer Ko

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Ang init ng panahon ano po? Isang kilos pa lang yung nagagawa mo, tagaktak ka na agad ng pawis. Kaso kahit anong init ng summer vacation, hindi rin ba sumasabay ang init ng puso mo para kay Jesus?

Kamusta ka? “Cold ako e.” marami-rami na rin atang beses ko narinig yan sa mga kaibigan. At maging ako, ilang beses ko na rin syang naranasan. Pero habang tumatagal, may mga bagay na pinarealized sa’ken si God about dito.

Minsan sobrang gamit na gamit na yung season na ‘to that sometimes it becomes an excuse or reason sa mga importanteng bagay na dinedeal talaga sa’ten ni God. Minsan nasasabi natin yung bunga na hindi natin alam kung ano ba talaga ang ugat. Before I come up to the conclusion that I’m in a cold season, I’ve learned some things from God and from other people that I need to ask to myself first.

Kamusta Devotions/Quality Time mo with God?

For the word of God is alive and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart. (Hebrews 4:12, NIV)

Kung nasabi mo na sa sarili mo na cold ka tapos wala ka pa lang maayos na communication with God, ayy, #BoomPanes yan. Sabi nga nila, walang matigas na tinapay sa mainit na kape. At wala ring matigas o malamig na puso sa mainit na pagmamahal ni Jesus. At ang #1 source para malaman natin ang pagmamahal na yan ay ang Bible – the Word of God: where we can hear His voice. Yung voice na mageencourage, magdidisiplina, magsasabi ng truth, rebukes and corrections. Kung yung mga magkarelationship nga na walang communication, nagiging cold sa isa’t-isa, ganun din tayo sa relationship natin with Jesus.

Friends, di porket bakasyon, bakasyon din ang Quiet Time natin ah? I believe summer vacation pa nga dapat ang season na active tayo sa Bible and Prayer. Ito ang tamang panahon para marinig Sya, makausap Sya at magpalakas tayo sa presensya Niya.

Like newborn babies, you must crave pure spiritual milk so that you will grow into a full experience of salvation. Cry out for this nourishment. (1 Peter 2:2, NLT)

How about the one word called: SIN?

Kung okay naman ang devotions mo, the next question is this.

But your iniquities have separated you from your God; your sins have hidden his face from you, so that he will not hear. (Isaiah 59:2)

One moment in my journey with the Lord, nakahiga lang ako sa kama and I really can’t experience God, magcoconclude na sana ako na nasa cold season ako when God reminded me na kaya ko yun nararamdaman because I committed a sin. #RealTalk di ba when we are in sin or committed a sin, minsan ang #1 response ng ating katawan ay magtago o lumayo kay God just like what Adam and Eve did? Those were the moments na masasabing cold talaga ako kay God hindi dahil sa Kanya but dahil sa mga actions ko. If I keep on blaming and giving the reason to God for that cold season without checking my heart, siguro nakatanggap ako kay God nang malumanay na, “Anak, Ako na naman?” hehe.

 “When God seems distant, you may feel that he is angry with you or is disciplining you for some sin. In fact, sin does disconnect us from intimate fellowship with God. We grieve God’s Spirit and quench our fellowship with him by disobedience, conflict with others, busyness, friendship with the world, and other sins.” (Rick Warren, The Purpose Driven Life Day 14)

I realized, minsan akala natin si God palagi yung nagdadala saten sa cold season pero most of the time, tayo lang talaga. So, “let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles…” (Hebrews 12:1) mahirap maglakad ng madaming bagaheng dala.

FEELINGS OVER FAITH.    

Hahayaan ko na lang si Rick Warren na magexplain ng pangatlo:

“The most common mistake Christians make in worship today is seeking an experience rather than seeking God. They look for a feeling, and if it happens, they conclude that they have worshiped. Wrong! In fact, God often removes our feelings so we won’t depend on them. Seeking a feeling, even the feeling of closeness to Christ, is not worship.

When you are a baby Christian, God gives you a lot of confirming emotions and often answers the most immature, self-­centered prayers-so you’ll know he exists. But as you grow in faith, he will wean you of these dependencies.

Yes, he wants you to sense his presence, but he’s more concerned that you trust him than that you feel him. Faith, not feelings, pleases God.” (Rick Warren, TPDL Day 14)

Exactly. “If I only do what I feel like doing I’m not a believer. I’m a feeler.” (Nica A.)

Sabi nga ng ating kaibigan na si Josh Wilson sa kanta niya: FAITH IS NOT A FEELING.

Then, it’s GOD.

“God admits that sometimes he hides his face from us. There are times when he appears to be MIA, missing-in-action, in your life.”

Cold Season. This is a part of our spiritual growth/maturity. Para tayong bata na tinuturuang maglakad na iniiwan sa konting distansya pero pag dumating yung time na nakapaglakad tayo o matutumba tayo, nandyan Siya para saluhin tayo. O kaya naman tayo yung mga batang naglalaro ng taguan at tayo ang taya. When we are dead serious to seek God with all of our strength and hearts, He promised that “You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.” (Jeremiah 29:13)     

“Trust God to keep his promises. During times of spiritual dryness you must patiently rely on the promises of God, not your emotions, and realize that he is taking you to a deeper level of maturity. A friendship based on emotion is shallow indeed.”

If you believe that God brought you in this cold season, know that He is taking you to maturity and I encouraged you to read this:

Link Here: The Purpose Driven Life: Day 14 

ONLY THE ACT OF TRUE LOVE WILL THAW A FROZEN HEART. (Olaf the Snowman)

Let us always remember that in every season, God is still God and God is still good. And kahit hindi man active ang devotions mo o you committed a sin o you are distracted by your feelings than your faith, mahal ka pa rin ni Jesus! Bago pa napauso ni kris aquino ang “Love. Love. Love.” nauna na si God: “I’ve never quit loving you and never will. Expect love, love and more love!” (Jeremiah 31:3, MSG)

[[all of my life, in every season, You are still God, I have a reason to sing, I have a reason to worship (till fades..)]}


Saturday 6pm Ushering Ministry Team Building 2015 Recap Video

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#itsmorefuninushering

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Sonship 4.0

MY MISSION. MY VISION.

“Walang bagsak… Hindi ako uulit ng subject…

Makapagtapos sa tamang panahon… Maihonor si God…”

Pagpasok ko sa kolehiyo, okay na ko dito.

Ngunit parang imposible, dahil kasabay nito ang pagtalikod ko sa palagi kong ginagawa nung high school: relying on other’s work or cheating.

When I was still a freshman, the only way I did to pass those hard subjects was to cheat dahil yun ang nakasanayan ko.

Naglaban yung isip ko. Paano mangyayari yung nasabe kong mission? Posible ba?

I chose to trust God kahit parang ang labo that time. Kumapit ako sa sinabi sa Bible na…

“Anyone who trusts in him will never be put to shame”

-Romans 10:11

Sa totoo lang, hindi siya naging madali. Ilang beses ko ring naranasan na makasama sa top 5 na nakakuha ng lowest scores pag may exam at walang makuha sa practical exam. Dumating ang worries and doubts na babagsak ako, maging ang temptation na mangopya at umasa na lang sa iba sa susunod.

But I chose to trust and honor God. Hawak Nya ko. Di Niya ko papabayaan.

Kung ang paghonor at pagfollow sa Kanya ay may kasama talagang pagbagsak, pipiliin kong bumagsak para maihonor Siya.

Ilang beses rin akong umiyak sa bahay, sa school at sa church sa hirap. Umaga man o gabi. May oras pa sana na susuko na dapat ako. Ayoko na sana…

But His strength, grace, faithfulness and love sustained me.

Iniwan ko na lang ang lahat sa Kanya.

In reaching your “promised land”, you must have the right heart and attitude. Yung relax ka lang kasi alam mong may in control. Yung ineenjoy mo ang bawat moment at hindi ito minamadali. Yung kahit alam mong naiwan at naunahan ka na ng iba, may pag-asa ka sa puso mo na kung anuman ang narating nila, makakarating ka rin dun.

At the end of the day, it’s not always about reaching that “land”, but who are you and who you’ve become that really matters. Yung taong ikaw habang patungo ka sa promised land.

Kung nanghihina at napapagod ka na, wag kang susuko. Kung kelangan mong gapangin hanggang matapos, gapangin mo. Dahil lakas pa rin Nya ang magdadala sa’yo sa pangarap na inihanda Nya para sa’yo.

 

HIS MISSION. HIS VISION.

Ngunit matapos ang lahat, nang balikan ko yung mga pangarap ko nung maguumpisa pa lang ako, maliban sa pang-apat na sinabi ko na ihonor Sya, narealize ko na ang liit pala ng pangarap ko sa sarili ko.

Ang apat na taon ay nagsilbing patunay na faithful si God anuman ang mangyari.

Kung anuman ang natanggap ko, hindi ito ang pangarap ko sa sarili ko. Ito ang pangarap at plano Nya para sa buhay ko.

Posible pala talagang makagraduate ng may honesty at integrity. May bonus pa. basta kasama mo si Lord. Dahil faithful si Lord.

Maraming beses na kung ako ang magbibigay ng grades sa sarili ko based sa performance ko, bagsak ako. Pero pagtanggap ng pinakafinal grade, magugulat ka na lang kung paano nangyari na nakapasa ka. Narealize ko na si God pa rin yung nagbibigay sa’yo ng grades. Nasa sa’yo na kung paano mo tatanggapin.

“I raised you up for this very purpose that I might display my power in you and that my name might be proclaimed in all the earth”

Romans 9:17 (NIV)

Mas masarap pala matanggap yung mga bagay na hindi mo masyadong ineexpect.

Yung nageenjoy ka lang at sumasabay ka sa kung saan ka dalhin ng Grace Nya.

Everything is a gift. Sabi nga ng pari nung Thanksgiving Mass. At kung regalo ito, wala akong ginawa kung hindi tanggapin lang. At kung alam mo talaga na si Lord yung nagdala at nagappoint sa’yo, walang lugar para sabihing deserved mo ang lahat ng bagay, ipagmayabang at sa tinatawag na entitlement.

Di mo kelangan magperform ng magperform para marating lang yung pangarap mo. Kasi yung pangarap na inihanda Nya para sa’yo, sealed and secured na yun. Kung dun ka talaga Nya gustong dalhin, dadalhin ka Nya dun.

Nakakatuwa. Yung mga bagay na iniiyak mo noon, ngayon, rason na lang ng pagngiti mo ngayon. Totoo nga na there may be pain in the night or kahit overnight but there’s joy in the morning.

Hindi numero na 1.0, 2.0 o 3.0 ang armas mo. Maging ang titulong Summa, Magna o Cum Laude. Ang armas mo ay ang Katotohanan at Liwanag sa puso mo. Dahil mas malakas ang nasa loob mo kesa nasa mundo.

Nung mga oras na nahihirapan ka at nanghihina ka na tumuloy, mataas pa rin ang tingin Nya sayo. Kasi nakikita Nya na ang destiny mo. Excited Syang ipakita sa’yo na walang ikukumpara yung mga pagsubok na nararanasan mo sa panahong ‘to kesa sa darating na panahon na ipapakita Nya yung power at faithfulness Nya sa buhay mo.

“Studying is one way of glorifying God.

It is a proof that the servants and students of the Lord

never get left behind because Jesus is their wisdom.”

*Quote Not Mine

Naging witness ka rin ng paglalakbay na to. Nabasa mo yung mga ups and downs ng isang estudyanteng katulad ko mula sa Sonship 1.0 hanggang Sonship 3.0. At kung nagtataka ka kung bakit Sonship ang pinili kong pamagat, hindi na lang “Buhay Kolehiyo” o “Chronicles of Randy Camba”, it’s for me to be reminded that before I am a student, I am a son. I have a personal relationship with God – a Father-and-son relationship.

He is faithful even when I’m not. He desires and have the best things for my life. He works things for my own good. He wants me to experience His goodness, grace and love every time.

Faithfulness at grace ni God ang bumuo ng istorya na ito. Paumpisa pa lang ako sa college at habang sinusulat ko pa lang ang Sonship 1.0, alam Niya na at nabuo nya na sa isip Niya ang Sonship 4.0.

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Salamat sa pagiging parte mo ng paglalakbay na ‘to. Thank you for investing your tongue, time and treasure to a student like me. Your prayers and encouragements really pushed and motivated me to keep running the race.

Ang blog na Sonship ay dito na nagtatapos… Bilang estudyante. 🙂


Captivating Beauty

Your blood has washed away, all of my sin and shame, Jesus the Son of God, You bore all the pain for me.

May maganda na Siyang pangalan at buhay pero pinili Niya pa ring magpakumbaba, magpakababa at mabuhay sa lebel ng mga taong madudumi, makasalanan, sasaktan lang Siya at di naman Siya papahalagahan.

Iniwan Nya yung pangalan na mataas pa sa lahat ng pangalan para mahalin at tanggapin yung tinuturing ng mundong ‘to na mga ‘mahina’, ‘basura’ at ‘walang kwenta’.
Minahal yung mga taong alam naman Niya na di Siya kayang mahalin pabalik katulad ng pagmamahal na binigay at ipinakita Niya. Nagpakababa Siya para yakapin at buhatin ang lungkot, sakit, imperfections at frustrations mo.

Ibinigay hindi lang yung kanan na pisngi ngunit pati yung kaliwa nang hindi ka makakarinig ng anumang reklamo at salita. Yung kahit alam Nyang mahirap at nasa temptasyon na Siya na tumigil sa pinapagawa sa Kanya, iitinuloy Nya pa rin kasi nananaig sa Kanya ang pag-ibig. Pag-ibig para sa Kanyang Ama at pag-ibig para sa’yo.

Yung sinag at kislap sa mukha Niya, di mo na makita nung dumating yung oras na pinahirapan na Siya. Puno na ng sugat na nagpagaling sa’yo at dugo na luminis sa’yo. Ngunit hindi naman nito nabura ang kabutihan, kalinisan at kagandahan ng Kanyang puso.

A perfect sacrifice. A holy offering. You gave it all for me. And I will forever sing.

Siya yung namatay para mabigyan ka ng buhay. Ang buhay Niya na walang bahid ng kasalanan ibinigay Nya sa mga makasalanan.

HE GAVE HIS ALL.

Buong buo. Walang tinira at tinago. Siya yung yayakap sa’yo sa mga oras na umiiyak ka, nahihirapan ka na o nawawalan ka ng pag-asa. Siya yung malalapitan mo na kaya ka pa ring tanggapin kahit masama, mabaho at madungis ka pa. Siya yung sumalo at nagmahal sa’yo nung hindi mo na yun nahanap sa mga taong nasa paligid mo at sa mundong ‘to. Sa kanya lang nagkaroon ulit ng purpose yung buhay mo na akala mo wala ng kwenta.

Sa kanya lang nagiging maganda ang mga salitang testings, trials, challenges, past and brokenness. Kaya kahit alam mong wala sa’yo yung lahat ng nasa mundong ‘to, masaya at contented ka pa rin kasi you’ve received the greatest gift of all! Sa Kanya ka lang makakalapit na dala dala mo kung sino ka talaga. He’s the One who knows your worst but still He loves you the most. Sa tagalog, alam Niya lahat ng kasalanan at baho mo pero kahit alam Niya, MAHAL NA MAHAL KA PA RIN NYA!!! MINAHAL AT MAMAHALIN KA PA NIYA.

Kaya kahit masaya ka bigla ka na lang iiyak. Kahit di ka naman marunong kumanta, mapapakanta ka. Kahit di ka naman marunong sumayaw, mapapagalaw ka.

What have I done to deserve Your grace and be free? No shadow of hope have I in anything I’ve done. It’s all by Your mercy and grace…

Naiintindihan mo ba yun? Kasi ako hindi. Hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit kaya Niyang mahalin yung taong katulad ko. Undeserving. Unworthy. Weak. Nothing.

Mas mahalaga pa ang tanong na ‘to sa tanong na “totoo bang may Diyos?”. Mahal Niya ko kahit ganito ako? Paano? Baket? Nature Nya kasi yun. He is Love. Oo nga. Pero baket? Anong meron? ASDFGHJKL!!! Ewan ko. Di ko alam. Ito ang tanong na hindi mo, hindi ko at hindi nila kayang sagutin. No eye has seen. No ear has heard. No mind can fathom how high, how deep and how wide His love for us. (1 Cor. 2:9, Ephesians 3:17)

Ito yung pagmamahal na di mo na kelangan ng explanation.

The Cross already proved it. His love is not meant to be explained. It is meant to be experienced.

Pero kung meron man talagang dahilan kung bakit nararansan natin lahat ng ‘to, hindi pa rin yun sa nagawa natin e. Noong nakatanggap ka ng ____ (insert all the blessings you’ve received), nung naging _____ (insert all the achievements and where He placed you), hindi dahil magaling kang ____(insert your talent), marunong kang _____(insert your skills/abilities), ang _____ (insert good words)mo, wala lahat, anino man ng lahat ng nagawa natin, hindi! Hindi dahil sa’ten, dahil pa rin yun kay MERCY and GRACE! Alam kong matatapos ang buhay ko dito sa mundong ‘to na hindi ko ‘yan masasagot. Baka 5% lang ang maiintindihan ko. 1.5% lang siguro ang nasa blog na ‘to.

You captivate me, beautiful Jesus. Your sacrifice reveals the glory of Your love. You came as ransom for my life. Now I’m living this life for You, Jesus.

Masaya ka sa mundo pero nasasaktan ka rin nito pero dumating yung araw na narealized mo, ‘ui, mas okay tong Jesus na ‘to a’ Dinaan ka ng mundo sa kung anu anong paraan para mabighani ka pero si Jesus, simple lang, sinabi Niya, ginawa rin Nya. Kaya nga mas may impact saken pag si Jesus ang kumanta ng “I will love you unconditionally” kesa kay Katy Perry e.

Everytime na binabalikan mo kung sino ka dati tapos titignan mo kung sino ka ngayon, everytime na helpless, complicated at dangerous na yung situation mo pero iba na yung perspective mo, andun na yung peace at security, bigla ka na lang maluluha, mapapangiti at magpapasalamat to the beautiful Jesus who revealed His ‘beautifulness’ to You! Kahit mahirap yung buhay, di mo na Sya magawang talikuran. Kasi lahat ng hinahanap mo noon, sa Kanya mo natagpuan. At kung tatalikod ka pa, kanino ka pupunta? Kahit masakit at mabigat yung dala at binibigay ng mundong ‘to, pinipili mo pa ring mabuhay para sa Kanya kasi sa huli alam mo na worth it lahat. Yung pagmamahal Niya talaga ang magpapalingon at magpapabalik sa’yo.

Lahat ng luha na lumabas sa mata mo, pupunasan Niya. Lahat ng saya na naramdaman mo, dadagdagan pa Niya. Lahat ng hirap at sakit na naranasan mo sa mundong ‘to, mawawala kasi sa tamang panahon, pagmamahal na Niya ang mararanasan mo.

Narealized ko lang, kaya nasa huling part yung “Now I’m living this life for You, Jesus.” kasi kelangan mo munang mahulog, mainlove at magandahan sa kung sino Siya. Hindi mo maibibigay ang buhay mo sa taong ‘di mo rin naexperience ang pagmamahal Nya sayo. (…because He first loved us.)

When Jesus said and showed to me that I am worth dying for, that loved and faithfulness moved me to live a life that will proclaim, He is also worth living for! You need to experience the love and faithfulness of this beautiful Jesus before you’ll realize that You’re also living a beautiful life!

Yung marerealized mo na lahat ng bagay sa buhay mo hindi maganda and the one and only beautiful thing or person in your life na natitira is si JESUS. It will just leave you a WOW!!
Brokenness is beautiful. The story of redemption is beautiful. The Cross is beautiful. Jesus is beautiful. He captivates me!

Whom have I in heaven but you?

And earth has nothing I desire besides You. 

-Psalm 73:25

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Because Your love is better than life, my lips will glorify You.

-Psalm 63:3

Originally posted as Facebook Note, June 6, 2014.


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